Can I be honest about something?
Sometimes, I just want to blog about the mundane things/thoughts I experience in life, but I rarely let myself because who wants to listen to all my stuff when you’ve got mundane thoughts/things of your own? I sat on the couch for 30 minutes tonight wanting so much to write but I fought myself the whole time because I don’t want to show up to my own blog empty-handed. I mean, if you take the time to read this blog post, shouldn’t you at least walk away with a recipe or a tip??
You won’t be walking away with much today, but if you sip a cup of coffee while you read this, it just might feel like we are having a nice visit. 🙂 So here’s what’s been on my mind lately:
Why not just come right out and say it: I am scared about a health issue. Let’s just say I found an egg-sized knot a couple weeks ago, and it hasn’t gone away. I spent most of Thanksgiving vacation crying about it, then we got home and I cried some more. I think I’ve told Mr. Smith “I’m so scared” at least once every half hour. The whole issue has sat on my shoulders like a sack of bricks, and I hope to find out what is going on at my doctor’s appointment next week. Maybe it’ll all just go away by then. In the meantime, I’m trying to stay of Google.
Just kidding. I Googled the heck out of this thing. My conclusion? There is an alien baby inside of me.
#2. Christmas Spirit-ish
Other than time with family and fun parties, I’m not really into Christmas. Maybe because I feel guilty about receiving gifts, maybe because it’s such a letdown when the holiday is over, maybe because all hell seems to break loose around this holiday–I dunno, maybe it could be that my shoes are too tight…
This year, however, I’m actually feeling the Christmas spirit. I want to watch all of the Christmas episodes of all my favorite shows and drink hot cocoa and decorate. And when I mean “decorate,” I mean “set out a few small things.” This means no tree but rather, a Yule Doorway:
It’s nothing fancy and is borderline lame but this string of lights and small collection of ornaments makes the house feel cozy and for us, that’s enough.
Wanna know what my favorite ornament of the bunch is?
Mr. Smith bought this the first year we were married. He gave it to me on Christmas day and said we needed to have an ornament that represented our first Christmas together. Even though the ornament was totally not my style, it has become my style because it was given with such love and sincerity.
This is another favorite for no other reason except that I always want to take a bite out of it:
#3. I really, really wanna make gingerbread men
Ok, this may sound dumb, but since I am in the Christmas Spirit-ish, I really, really want to make gingerbread men. Unfortunately, I have no idea when I will have the time to do it.
On the plus side, my lack of time is because I have been getting a lot of extra business this month which I am so thankful for. Last year, I barely made enough to pay bills for the month of December. Sometimes I feel like we will never get ahead, but then I look back at a year ago and realize how far we have come.
Nevertheless, I am dreaming of a quiet afternoon with a cup of coffee and some cookie cutters and a rolling pin. Doesn’t that sound like fun?
#4. Gilmore Girls
Again, this is totally dumb, but I am having a secret affair with the TV show Gilmore Girls.
(Shhh…don’t tell my friends I said that. They think I hate the show.)
And I did for a long time. Since everyone raves about it, I gave it a try about 4 years ago and found that it dragged. Then I tried watching it 2 weeks ago but got so annoyed with that Sookie character that I swore off the show for good. Really, she has got to be the most annoying character ever played on television.
Well, then one thing led to another and I found myself home alone and in need of a quiet, comforting show. So I gave Gilmore Girls a third try. Next thing I knew, I’d watched half a season. (And simply took bathroom breaks every time Sookie entered the picture.) I wanted to binge watch the show again tonight, but Mr. Smith was home and I’ve decided that watching Gilmore Girls is a private thing. Kind of like using the bathroom. There’s some things I just don’t want my husband to see me doing. Going Number 2 is one of them. Watching a cheesy show about a mother and daughter is another.
But how fun would it be to live in that Gilmore Girl world? (Even though their world is SO not reality which is one of the things that used to annoy me about the show.)
If you’ve made it to this point in the post, you deserve a hug and a badge for your caring and kindness. Sometimes, I just need to write for me…even if half the stuff I write is silly, useless information.
Nevertheless, thank you for reading it. 🙂